All Things Life

Thunders roar.The sky brightening now  illuminates the road.Sitting at the window sill I stare ahead aimlessly.In an apartment window,the light comes alive,I see the man through his balcony door.He looks like a regular IT guy.Its 2 in the morning.Placing his bag on the table,he goes inside.I wait for him to return.He has changed into his slacks.Looks tired,gulping down from his water bottle.He turns the tv on,switches between channels for a while,shuts it in the end.He keeps sitting there blank,lost somewhere.       I sigh.Sleep hasn't still found its way.I take another sip of my camomile tea.Closing my eyes I breathe.I turn to him again,he is in his balcony now.His auburn hair fall on his forehead,his eyes look for something in the dark,searching.He makes smoke patterns through his breath into the cold night.Suddenly he looks into my direction.His eyes hitting the target.Looks as if he has found what he was looking for.I shudder,the mug from my hands shatter on the ground.St

               Is it ok to be lost? Waking up finally after snoozing the alarm five times,rushing out of my bed because if I don't,I am gonna be late in catching my 7: 45 bus,and would eventually be late for my first lecture.And I HATE to be late.Yes,just hate it.Reach college,on time,lose myself into the  intricacies of Family Law and get back home by evening.Tiring day but not unfulfilling. Standing under the cold shower,getting rid of the sweat and grime I am struggling to evade the questions my inner self is throwing up at me.I try to shove them away.I admit I dread the answers.Or I don't know the answers.Maybe I don't want to know the answers? Urghh......please my inner self it's annoying.I am too tired to indulge in this gruelling. Unmoving the questions come jumping at me.So are you happy? You liking your life? What about the future?Are you gonna make it? Bla bla bla.... The cold water dripping down my hair,carressing my back,tingling,trying to